I admit that I complain too much!
It is a rainy flooding Wednesday here in Central PA. I just did a workout, I poured my protein shake in a pretty glass, and to be honest I'm not loving the taste of it. I added a peach and I can still taste the whey protein and I know I have enjoyed this flavor before what did I do wrong this time? Ugh!
Now I'm frustrated.
Now I'm complaining about this stupid protein powder or is that complaining? I mean I'm just stating a fact that I don't like the taste.
Hmm was it necessary to tell my blog world about my dissatisfaction?
Let's take a look at the definition of complain.
According to Oxford Dictionary found on Bing:
express dissatisfaction or annoyance about something. "local authorities complained that they lacked sufficient resources" · [more] synonyms: protest · grumble · moan · whine · bleat · carp · cavil · lodge a complaint · [more]
(complain of) state that one is suffering from (a pain or other symptom of illness). "her husband began to complain of headaches"
(of a structure or mechanism) groan or creak under strain. synonyms: squeak · groan · grate · screech · squeal · grind · jar · rasp · rub · scrape
literary make a mournful sound. "let the warbling flute complain"
I'd say UGH is a mournful sound. I expressed my annoyance to you so yea I'd say that was complaining. We could argue back and forth whether or not that was complaining however I can be honest enough to say my heart and motivation behind it was pure annoyance and yes complaint.
I've been seeking the Lord on what keeps me in this like depressive cycle. I'm good for a while and then it's like BAM out of nowhere I'm back in this state of depression or is it truly out of nowhere? I've been seeking natural things like how my diet affects my mood and the whole hormone thing (especially since I'm heading into my 40's). Does it seem to hit around my monthly cycle more? Truth is it definitely intensifies but what is the root? God created our beautiful bodies and there is so much science about these bodies to learn but beyond that what is the root to these depressive cycles I keep getting myself into? Truth is it's been way before social media was even a thing so I can't blame that. So let's take a journey to my past a bit.
I remember the moment God rescued me from a dark dark pit of destruction. I was depressed, had suicidal thoughts, was drinking excessively, not going to church, and our marriage was falling apart. I was upstairs listening to Kari Jobe's song "Here'. I fell to my knees and wept and I felt God so near. I suddenly felt a weight lift and I was excited to live life again. In that moment I rededicated my life to God and I started on a journey of finding a church and getting connected again and it hasn't been easy that's for sure but WOW GOD!!! Since then He has been healing my heart and changing my mindsets. While I was on a journey back to God my coworker at the time and very good friend and I would email back and forth. (We worked in different departments) We would share our days and the struggle of feeling like we were going around and around the mountain like the Israelites. We would complain about how much we hated work and wanted to quit our jobs and live out our dreams. We started to share devotional encouragement with each other and often the theme would be on our attitudes and it became a joke that we were being followed by devotional trolls with the verse from Philippians 2:14.
Philippians 2:14 (taken from biblegateway) New Living Translation
14 Do everything without complaining and arguing,